Monday, August 11, 2008

judged by the sun's rays


Lately, I've been reading the book of Philippians. Its real short, so I've been reading it everyday for the past 5 days. God's really speaking through it, so I thought I might share a few things that I've never seen before.

What so cool about the bible, is that as time goes on, you get new "lenses" to look through as you read the bible; things that you've never seen before JUMP out of the page. Often times life experiences go a long way to shaping these lenses. Lately, the "lens" of love has been jumping out of the page. I went and saw Heidi Baker speak this past Sunday, and I'm reminded of the simplicity of the gospel: loving God, and from the place of intimacy and friendship with Him, loving others...simply overflowing with His love. Love looks like something. Love has teeth.

Here's some of the background of Paul's letter to the saints in Phillipi:

One of the things Paul was confronting in this letter mindset that you have to work for righteousness. People were believing in Jesus, but still living in the law, meaning they were "doing stuff" to try to get God's acceptance. Paul called these leaders, people who lead others into the law again "dogs" - beware of them.

Paul contrasts these "dogs" with his heart's cry-
"that I might be found in Him, not having my own righteousness, which is from the law, but that is through faith in Christ." He said they preach the gospel out of strife. He also wrote this letter, because there was division creeping in the church, and he wanted people to be of one mind...the mind of Christ. And with the lens of love, Christ's mind is love...radical, turn-the-world-up-side-down love.

Ok, with that background, here's the verse I was mediating on: this is Paul's prayer for the saints at Phillipi, so its a good prayer:)

"And this I pray: that your love may abound still more and more in knowledge and discernment, that you may approve the things that are excellent, that you may be sincere and without offense till the day of Christ, being filled with the WHICH ARE fruits of righteousness WHICH ARE BY JESUS CHRIST, to the glory and praise of God."


Key word:
"Abound" - be in excess, superfluous, abundance.

Ok, so here are my thoughts. This isn't THE interpretation of this verse...this is just what hit my heart when was mediating on these verses.

What does it meant to abound in love in knowledge and discernment.? I was thinking about Jesus, and how He knows everything about me. You could say He has full knowledge of me...all my weaknesses, the secrets of my heart. Even with all that knowledge, He loves me!! His love is abundant towards me!!! So when Paul is praying that our love with abound in knowledge and discernment, i think it can mean that even when we see weaknesses in people, people's crap, when they hurt us, when they don't return our love....when we have this "knowledge and discernment of people.......AND WE STILL LOVE!! In fact, our love abounds all the more! Discernment is so important, but If i see pain and weakness and sin in people, and this discernment pushes me away from them, then I'm NOT abounding in love. I'm instead judging.

If I'm to approve the things that are excellent, then the most excellent thing is love. Paul says its the most excellent way. God is love....if this love fills me, then I WILL BE SINCERE - the word sincere means" judged by the sunlight." how cool is that!! - if i am filled with love, i will be filled with sunlight...it will pour into my life, and darkness must flee.

Being filled with love keeps us from holding offense. Offense simply means choosing to withhold love. So abounding in love causes us to radiate with light, and to live un-offended. The fruits of righteousness will overflow in my life if I'm abounding in love. This righteousness comes from Christ. Not by works.

When Jesus walked the earth, people around Him felt totally safe and accepted, and yet the found the power to change: the lady caught in adultery, the women at the well, Zacheous...ect. Love has so much power, because it fully accepts, and yet people find power to change. It never condemns. It empowers. Love says, "there's a kingdom of light...a place of freedom. Come with me. I'll walk with you side-by-side. There's the ocean of mercy that never ends...come with me and I'll show you. I won't leave you alone."

Jesus doesn't walk the earth anymore in the physical. BUT we do. We're the body of Christ. We're His hands and feet. It the most amazing story....in our rebellion, God saves a people, and this people becomes transformed into a new person, a glorious bride that proclaims the love of our bridgegroom. We walk the earth. We are filled with His love. We shout from the rooftops the power of the cross. We proclaim the blood of Christ. Our righteousness isn't of ours....the power of the law is destroyed. this is life. this is what the world is waiting to see. you in?


Tuesday, August 5, 2008

poison ivy's wisdom

so my whole body is covered in poison ivy. This pretty much sucks. But its also kinda funny in a way. My skin has transformed from normal, healthy skin, to nasty, pink splotchy skin.

So i rented this movie yesterday....called the "notebook" - i know, everyone's seen it already, but i haven't. So i watched this chick-flic alone in all its glory. I was having a pity party for my poison ivy condition, and what perfect time to watch a chick-flic.

Admist the sappyness and Hollywood romance, I had this thought. True love is when my wife will love me, even when my body is covered in poision ivy, nasty pink splotches and all. When I watched the notebook, what stirred deepest isn't the desire to have a "Hollywood romance," you know the perfect romantic moments, the passionate makeup kiss, BUT to be totally accepted, even with all the junk in me. For someone to know everything about me, all my weakness, and to say, "yes, I still wanna spend my life with you." that's what I'm most excited about. Hollywood is fun to watch, but my bet is on that the kinda love I'm seeking will never fade. Right now, God is still showing me what my future wife is like, but i'm so excited for the day that I met her, whoever she is, so excited for the day that love becomes a choice, to totally choose someone to love, full acceptance.... So, you know what, poison ivy is teaching me something. haha. glory to God:) just come take this way ASAP!!!

Sunday, August 3, 2008


Sunday, July 20, 2008

Freedom, Rain, and Roofs.


letting the blogging begin...again! I've taken a break, but I feel its time to start again.

So, today is Sunday afternoon, and this is the only time of the week we're I feel I have to hang out with people...because its Sunday. AND, of course all my friends are out of the country, and my parents are who-knows-where. So its me, my big house, and my thoughts, God, and this blog.

Last night, I went to the "Knoxville Outpouring" meeting, and God surprised me for sure. I mean, I knew it was going to be good, but last night was a fresh word for me. The worship leader kept singing about freedom, and God was really hitting me with fresh revelation. You know, sometimes God goes after your heart and emotions, and sometimes He hit your mind first. Well, last night was the mind, and then translated into my heart. Here goes....see if you can follow my train of thought.

Ever wondered why God put two trees in the garden? And why didn't He hide the bad tree in the corner or something? NOPE! DEAD CENTER! Its because He gave us freedom, and freedom is the ability to choose...God gave us the freedom to not choose Him, and thus choose our own path...and that path is the path of self-sufficiency, the path of "I'm fine on my own" - otherwise know as the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. That tree is represented in the "Law" - the law points to righteousness and our weakness because try as we might, we can't fulfill the law. The whole Old Testament is about this, and current day legalism is this package with a nice, neat bow of "I'm a Christian and I have my life in order, or perhaps better stated, I have my lie in order" - this tree, this law, leads us to the only one who can fulfill this law....Jesus!

So if freedom is the ability to choose, then we either choose self-sufficiency, or we choose dependency....on Christ. With that background, here is what I wrote down in my journal last night.

Freedom is being a bond-servant of Christ.
Freedom is living for God's will alone.
Freedom is dependence.
To the world, freedom is independence...in God's Kingdom, true freedom is dependence on Him
It looks like being a child.

Freedom looks like complete trust.
Freedom is tasting and seeing that God is good, that His plans for me are LIFE, abundant life.

Freedom is knowing I'm a ligament son of God.
Freedom is surrender.
Freedom is being the sacrifice.

"Your people will be freewill offerings in the day of your power; in the splendor of holiness, from the womb of the dawn, Your youth are to You as the dew." - Psalm 110

Know the this verse? "Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom."

Well, that verse came alive last night. When God's Spirit is present, He proclaims the wonders and greatness of Christ. And when Jesus is lifted high and seen for who He really is, freedom is found because choosing Christ is abundant life! He is irresistible. Many times, religious baggage gets in the way, but when the Spirit moves, self sufficiency is blown away by the majesty and glory of Christ. You would you rather put your trust in? Legalism looks plain stupid when the beauty of Christ is seen.

Freedom is a progressive journey. Jesus is the destination. Every new level of freedom experienced on earth is a new, fresh level of trust in God....faith in who He says He is, and who He says we are. This is the kind of freedom I'm longing for. The kind where my acceptance comes from the Father, and where my life mission is do His will on earth...that's real freedom. Isn't it amazing that we will never "arrive" , and that there is will be a never ending journey to experiencing the depths of God's heart?

So here we are again...releasing control and finding that its the sweetest, most joyful thing ever. God's in charge. Let His faithfulness rain-down upon you...and don't put a roof over your head. Read these lyrics from one of my favorite songs:

I am the wilderness locked in a cage
I am a growing force you kept in place
I am a tree reaching for the sun
Please don't hold me down
Please don't hold me down

I am a rolling wave without the motion
A glass of water longing for the ocean
I am an asphalt flower breaking free but you keep stopping me
Release me
Release me

I am the rain that's coming down on you
That you shielded yourself from with a roof
I am the fire burning desperately but you're controlling me
Release me
Release me


amen. (this song isn't even Christian! People can help but write about Him, and they don't even know it. haha)

GO LISTEN TO THIS SONG NOW! ITS SO GOOD!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xYfsJ6rXgoc